Seeing my daughter in black and white.

Thursday, February 17, 2011


I slept better last night than I thought I was going to. For some reason I thought I would toss and turn and dream out of excitement, but I slept sound and steady.
Waking up, I had an anxious feeling in my stomach. I noticed that Scott was wearing a nice button up shirt- something he only does when we go on dates.
All morning I felt like I had some big interview. Like I had someone I had to impress. I sat in my closet for a good thirty minutes looking for something to wear.

Technically, I didn't meet anyone new today, but when I saw her on the ultra-sound screen, I realized that the person I was preparing to meet was my own inner Mrs. Darling. A meeting that solitified that I have become a mother.
What do you wear for a moment like that? The moment when you realize you're not just pregnant with some wierd parasite or illness? The moment that hits you from out of nowhere that you have a DAUGHTER, not a baby bump. What do you wear for that besides a smile and a pair of glossy eyes?
Today I am feeling grateful. I am feeling confident. I feel like everything has changed. I feel peace.

3 comments:

  1. I CAN'T WAIT TO START MAKING YOU 15" FLOWERS TO PIN TO HER HEAD!! omg, maybe i'll splurge on a M.R.S. headband...EEEE!!!!!!! in all seriousness, though, i'm thrilled for you guys. this is most fantastic news.

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  2. *sigh* I'm so happy for this. I can't wait to meet this little girl!

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  3. Yay for girls! Luckily for me, I was big enough I didn't fit in non-maternity clothes, but small enough most of my maternity clothes were too big. It really helped in my decision making process when it came to what to wear...

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