I'm dying to have an opinion about something.
Let's blame it on boredom.
When I was in school, and/or working, I always had something to have an opinion about. SOMETHING kept my mind making decisions and thinking things out and coming to conclusions.
I secretly liked how annoyed I was by the whole Kony thing (which has apparently blown over seeing as none of my facebook friends have mentioned Ugandan children in a while). I liked thinking something through and doing research and figuring out where I stand. It's a process that I live for- and one that drove me into being a social worker.
Now that I'm a stay-at-home mom, I don't have "projects" to think about anymore. Yes, being a mother of a 10 month old gives me plenty of little moments like this- should I let Georgia cry it out right now, or cuddle her? Constantly take the dirty remote away from her mouth, or disinfect it and let her play?
The big stuff though- the stuff people loooove to talk about? I have no opinion. I don't have opinions on if you should breast-feed/sleep train/give your kid Nyquil for long road trips. We're pretty much flying by the seat of our pants over here and we try not to judge.
Honestly, I try not to "over think" the whole mothering thing because, in the end, I'm going to do a whole lot right and whole lot wrong anyway.
The point is, I love me a good research topic. Call me nuts, but I miss being in college and writing papers and giving presentations. I'll blame that on loving my major.
Some days, I really gotta hold back the jealousy when I watch Scott leave for school- all ready to have adult conversations about adult topics. No one will ask him how old his daughter is now and if she's sleeping through the night. They won't then awkwardly end the conversation. They won't give patronizing smiles and advice to "enjoy every moment of this."
Anyway, I'm not trying to complain. Really.
It's that that sometimes I wish Georgia and I could sit down and discuss the book I'm reading about the sleep sickness epidemic and that she would show more interest.
Love your thoughts!!! It is a hard time!!! Soon enough you will find yourself engulfed in three kids and running everywhere and wishing you could just sit for a minute!!! But for now those thoughts are normal. It is a little bit lonely with one at home but it also is a fabulous time with one that will never happen again!!!! Oh motherhood it is awesome and it is horrible all wrapped into one sweet little package:) Tracy Peery
ReplyDeletewant to talk about how social media is bending perspective on interpersonal relationships? or, whether pornography should be covered in sex ed, and whether sex ed should be mandatory? or, any of the topics related to interracial and/or intercultural adoption? or, how harmful or benign princess culture is on the perceptions girls and boys have about gender, gender roles, and sexuality? cause i'm bored out of my freaking mind most days, and if there is one thing i am good at, it is having an opinion.
ReplyDeleteIf this were facebook, I would "like" both of your comments.
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